It's been awhile since I first posted about my Dad's cancer. I guess I was hoping for a miracle, and maybe it has been. Dad has been fighting a very rare form of mouth cancer which started 6 years ago. At that time I pulled all resources and moved him into a house a mile from us. Five years of remission, and then lung cancer diagnosed in April. He has been getting chemo treatments every three weeks since then. When he told me about the lung cancer, it was the hardest day of my life. The doctors said 2 months, maybe a year if a miracle happens. I've got to say that he is a tough old man. 83 years, wwII, korea, and all of life's challenges.. I only hope and pray that I can have his strong will. Many times throughout this ordeal I have felt so weakened and drained, maybe lost would be an appropiate word. I have cared for him, cleaned, carried him, and just spent time together. I still feel as though I have not done enough. Even sometimes when I pray I cannot concentrate to finish my prayers. Two months ago we discovered enourmous charges on his credit card. Soon we found out it was the care agency's nurse we hired to help. The charges are over $29,000. This has conflicted with my thought process dealing with the anger and shock, let alone the financial expectations. The woman has been caught, and that is another story. The chemo was seeming to help and Dad even at times appeared to be 20 years younger. Then last week we got terrible info. His tumors had grown significantly larger and the doctor's say there is nothing left they can do.I was out of town that day so my sister came to take him for his treatment. She told me he looked like a child when the doctors gave them the news and asked them"won't anyone help me anymore?" This vision makes me cry. Please pray for my father, and my sister whom had to experience that moment. Dad told me awhile back in one of our last Buick rides that he would be happy to see one more birthday Aug. 5- in which he did. Please pray he doesn't have to suffer anymore. He never took morphine after his wounds in the wars and now lives on it. It doesn't help anymore. Please pray for me to be able to get back on track and forgive those that have done him wrong. Mostly, I ask for your prayers that the Good LORD has a place in His home for him.
Your in a tough spot my friend...Try not be discouraged. Go spend the time and be with him, hug his neck and tell him how you feel, Thank him for all the good he has done. Encourage him to not be afraid and to reach out for GOD..HE is there. Pray!
My prayers are with you and your family. I went through a very similar situation a few years ago with my eldery Father. I can relate.
Steve, We'll remember you, your Dad, and your family in our thoughts and prayers. You did good taking care of him, I'm sure it comforts him. God bless.
I grieve with you... My father left this planet 16 years ago and it seems like yesterday... He would be 85 now if he would have still been here. He departed at 68 years old. It is not fun, I know...But be assured ,you can still be together again! I will pray for you and your daddy. Eric
Prayers Sorry to hear of your grief and your Dads suffering. I too lost my Dad to cancer and he was a Veteran also. Don't beat yourself up and think you aren't doing enough. Its a normal feeling for eveyone who grieves over a loved one they are caring for but you can only do so much. Its clear in your post you are doing all you can. I'm betting your Dad is getting a lot of prayers at this time. There is a lot of truth in the saying "Let go an let God" Best wishes to you and your family my friend. Bob Harris
