Iv'e been coming back to this thread constantly for a week trying to come up with something to say and even went to your sig and back tracked till you first announced the diagnosis in 2016. Still can't seem to come up with words but I do have a pit in my gut just trying to imagine what your going through while typing this. God has a reason they say?? Family is family and you need to surround yourself with them and have some deep good cries at times to release.. I'm sorry i'm babbling or maby coming off with nonsense and especially from someone who hasn't been here long and you don't know. Just wish I had better word's of comfort..