I am sitting here rereading Tommy Tenney's God Chasers.This is the second time that I have read this,and I have a question to ask. Chapter 9 is about dismantling your glory. He says "What He (God) wants us to do is just look at Him.Yes,we can tell Him what we feel.We need to tell Him,but what He is really waiting to receive our most intimate worship and adoration,the kind that transcends mere words or outward actions." Later he says The only way to the place David called "the secret place" is through the door of focused worship,when you lay aside every distraction and focus your body, soul, and spirit upon God.When His prescence becomes so strongthat you are oblivious to everyone and everything else around you,then healing can come in an encounter with God which you will never "recover". Throughout the chapter,he uses Mary as an example.Washing Jesus feet with her tears,and drying them with her hair,then annointing them with fragrance.Throughout chapter nine,Tommy speaks of brokeness often also. I know as followers,we tend to take a step forward,and maybe a step back.We tend to fall into a rut when it comes to worship and prayer.We slip and slide and eventually catch our footing and climb back onto that narrow path. Sometimes it seems like I come to a point on the narrow,where it seems to end,and there is a pit with no way accross.,I just stand there wondering how I am going to get accross to the other side and just stay there until I get frustrated and just try to jump to the other end.Sometimes I land on the other side just fine,and other times I fall and finally catch the side and climb back up. I don't seem to know how to get the pathway to appear before me,or to find the lever to send a walkway to get accross safely.I don't look around to find a rope to throw across,or to see the tiny ledge that I can scoot across on my toes. I have had moments where I thought God was speaking to me.I can feel the Holy Spirit telling me not to do something,or to do something.But I have never heard God speak to me.I have never had a conversation with Him.I have never heard Him and knew if it truly was Him. How have you found that brokeness,that moment,the key to revealing Gods face.That moment when you KNOW you have appeared in His prescence and heard His voice.Seen His face,and knew what He wanted you to do?When you finally broke through started having real conversations with Him.Knew what He wanted you to do with your life.What your ministry was,or your career. Sorry for the ramble,but not too many people around Waveland that I can speak to about these things.
Kase, For me brokeness came very slow do to my bullheadedness(stubboness). When it did come I knew without a doubt it was there. Fortunately I was surrounded by many Christian friends who were praying for me. I saw that I had 2 options, suicide or something better. I passed out before I could step out in front the train I was waiting on and ran out money so no more booze. Living homeless and nowhere to go I went to my Christian friends. They pulled me out the pit I was in brought me to the Lord. Everyones bottom is different and it is so sad that some have to go as far as I did and even worse finish the job they started. The answer to why we will never know until,(I belive) we get heaven. I'll get back to you by e-mail later. Tim :TU:
Kase, So far, my contact with God came from me asking for someting and having it suddenly granted....no buildup, no anything...I asked , he granted...just flat out , on the spot GRANTED..BOOM, POOF, ZAP. whatever..INSTANT....I was thankful and scared to death all at the same time.......because at that point in my 38th year of life, , I for the first time, KNEW 100% FOR SURE that GOD DID IN FACT EXIST and he WAS listening.....blew me away. God took my compultion to crave alcohol away from me, instantly, I asked [ begged actually], he granted....Do I "hear" his voice ? Do I "see" his image...not exactly......I just every now and then get that exact same feeling I had that night laying on a riverbank in the mud..and I KNOW God's love and presence are there. Thats why they say "God works in mysterious way" because it comes to each of us differently.....just keep asking, it will come and when it does, you WILL know it, you WILL understand ! God Bless ! Gary
